my life starts..

with 'what..if' and 'i never thought'

i still remembers vaguely during standard 6 when you have to write an essay of your ambition. At that age, among others who seem to struggling thinking what or who or how they wanted to be in the future.i was not.i wanted to be writer.back then. Submitting essay to Cikgu with the extra 5 -10 pages(i do not get extra mark for it anyway;) clearly wanted to have my own book one day. i wasn't in a first row table of super-pandai friends. i was just average.always in the middle row of table.(Last time in my class my homeroom teacher arrange is according to our performance in tests) I never thought i could be as good as them..

then here comes high school, after form 3, we have to choose wether we want to be in science or art stream, right? well it took me sometime to think to go for which direction. i did not write so much at this time.but deep down i still love writing and i love history(yerp!) and i really wanted to do psychology. but i know science stream look more promising(doctors, pharmacist bla2 etc/..) So in form 4 i entered science stream with what if i am actually can be a doctor? biology,chemistry, physics.trying my whole last 2 years in high school in developing the interest to study biology and physics(Well i like chemistry the most). and i still remembers, in physics lab session, i said to myself i never want to study physics or do anything with physics anymore. Alhamdulillah..after form 5,after completing my 1st semester of A-Level(trying to pursue my study in psychology) i received a scholar to pursue my study in UTP.Engineering that is! Chemical Engineering would not be that bad right? After all i like chemistry back then.I honestly did not start very well..i was thinking what if i made a mistake.A big mistake in my life? I started to improve from the 1st year till the very final year of study with 2 yrs in a row achievements.I never thought i could do that.But i did..

And now..

looking back, i never thought i did engineering..
i never thought i will be an engineer (specifically in upstream) one day..
i never thought i could live longer..( i could not imagined i will be a grown up..)
i never thought i will work in Sabah..
i never thought i will be who i am today..


"what a great feeling to look back on what you've already climbed"